Since my blowout with BM nearly 3 weeks ago we haven’t seen the skids. We’ve had one phone call from SD14 about her wagging school but thats it. BM normally call minimum once a day. We haven’t heard boo! Now I have to admit I love it. We are almost like a newly married couple with NO KIDS. Yes I miss the kids but I can’t help but notice much LESS stressed DH is and how much FUN he’s been in the last week.
I think he misses the kids too but is loving the lack of bull crud from BM. I don’t want them to come back cause I know it means dealing with BM BUT then I feel guilty cause I don’t want them there. I am a little shocked that she is actually keeping her word and I’m not really sure what to do about it. DH seems fairly comfortable letting her dig her own grave but I feel like I should be pushing him to contact her or at least the skids (mostly because of other peoples perception). He keeps telling me its probably the best for them even though its not the best for him. I’m trying to take the back seat and let him make the decsions about this. Its HARD though.
I don’t want to be the reason he doesn’t see his kids. I’m pretty sure she was just looking for a way to make this happen and my actions were just the excuse she is using to do that. I don’t want the skids to contact DH later and hate me cause I’m the reason they didn’t see DH. Most of all I feel guilty cause deep down if I’m really really honest I don’t want them to come back until they’re adults and can see us without any input from BM. Plus it might give us some time to just be us instead of being a SF.
God I’m a horrible person. Does this make sense? Do any of you feel like this??
